Thursday, July 14, 2011
The pressure is on with the group report due in a few hours time. Right now, everything is a disorganized jumble, not quite different from the state of my mind right now. I really hope I can get our group's work up to par. If only we shared equal personal obligation to this assignment!
After attending the midnight Harry potter premier a night of formatting, editing, and data inputting awaits. While many were left blubbering about the end of their childhood, I have more important things on mind, including regretting that I spent so much time going to the theater, when it was smarter to stay home editing. I had no idea how much restructuring I implement into the final report. It's going to be a very late night.
Yesterday’s title turned out to be pretty accurate, although I’m really starting to wish it wasn’t. While I played off today as the “last day of stress” in my last blog, I didn’t really comprehend just how much stress you are under the day before a final that will completely make or break your grade in a class that has been the sole purpose of your existence for three weeks straight. I have made attempts to relax, most notably a three hour nap immediately after class, which will definitely help me be as alert as possible for tomorrow’s two hour test. One of the most calming things that have happened to me was an e-mail from my mom I received yesterday. Although at first glance it seemed like an e-mail threatening to disown me if I struggled on the final (which I don’t think I will but there was a lot of material to cover so I can never be sure) I’ve been told it was supposed to be a reassuring message, and it has really given me confidence heading into tomorrow’s final, since I know I have the full support of my family, and on an even larger scale, the ILC as a whole. Once again, I’m grateful for this opportunity, and I hope I can represent my school district tomorrow as well as I have been trying to this entire trip.
I have to admit that our organization was haphazard and it was rather unfortunate for me to miss valuable office hours time yesterday because of my ailing illness. With barely anything done, we all got straight to doing business and work on our report. However, as communication has been spotty today, we only managed to get one major section out of three thoroughly completed. But because I was too paranoid in thinking that we didn't have enough content already, I spent the entire day cleaning, revising, and checking up on the section to make sure that it was as perfect as it could be.
Little did I know, I was wasting valuable time that could have been allocated to focusing on getting the other parts done. Sometimes it is better off to swallow a pill and actually make sure everything is complete instead of going through each nit-picky thing.
At lunch, however, it was nice to unwind to the birthday celebration of Terilyn. It was pretty clever to see that "Happy Birthday" was spelled backwards as a reference to the "backward pronunciation" game I hear Teri play often.
But once playtime was over, it was back to work and all I could think of is why did it feel as if we were missing something important in our report. Not that everything that should be included isn't important, but sometimes we can't help ourselves but think that there is always something that needs to improved upon and that it probably should be.
Our group is significantly behind, but with the final curtains closing tomorrow, we should be able to throw our all into this and conclude the program with not a fizzle, but a bang.
It is truly odd to think I have been for so long. Yes it has felt like a long time, but these three weeks at Cornell have just flown by. I honestly still remember rushing off to the orientation presentation and how nervous I was on the first day, and now here I am cramming for the final exam, which marks the end. Not to go all emotion on you readers but I am going to miss this place and the people who have become my family.
Today was the last lecture. I have no officially sat through 19 lectures during this course (not all of them are by Professor Kramnick). Gosh it really is impressive that these three weeks are over. I just don’t feel like I have really been in school for three weeks. Wow. Anyway, today the lecture was on the last ‘group’ that experienced inequality.
This week has been about inequality and we began with feminists who wanted, obviously, women’s’ rights. Next we moved on to Burke who is a firm supporter of inequality, claiming that it is necessary for the structure of a good and strong community. Then we learn about Marx and his focus on economic inequalities. And lastly we talked about racial inequalities with Martin Luther King Jr. and Malcolm X. But I think the most interesting part of today was seeing how even the ideas Plato and Christ thought way back when were/are still present in the 20th and 21st century. It is amazing that even the issues of the past may have changed a little they are still rooted in the same issues and thus can be dealt with in similar manners. We learn from the past.
Well I need to get back to studying. Wish me luck.
Until tomorrow, Over and Out blog readers.
Today was actually rather uneventful in terms of a school day. We learned why we were placed in our groups, and learned that having none of one of the four behavioral traits would set up the group to fail in the long term. Which is ironic because our group is missing of the four. Of course that does not actually mean anything specific -- well, at least, I am not dealing in absolutes.
On the social side, we had a small birthday party for Teri due to the fact that we couldn't celebrate it on Saturday. The small party was attended by a rather large group of people actually, and it turned out to be really fun. The cake was a lot bigger than it seemed, and a lot tastier than I expected. It was a nice interlude between the lengths of work.
Well much ado till later all. I will try to update this when I can.